I Like Weird

Weird: the suggesting something supernatural; unnatural.

"Isabel, you're a bit too much at times."

That was something my high school best friend said to me once. We aren't friends anymore but that one sentence has stuck with me four years later. Then, I really don't know what she meant but now I do.

I'm reckless. I'm crazy. I'm weird. I'm different. I like to live on the wild side. That's who I am, and that's who I will always be. It's who God created me to be. And I'm perfectly fine with that.

When I was in high school, I wanted to fit in and have everyone's approval. So like any teenage girl, I dressed a certain way, I did my make up and hair in the latest trends (which wasn't a big thing then), and of course acted as all my other high school girlfriends acted. If I was hanging around one friend I started acting like her, the way she talked, the way she laughed and acted. Everything that friend would do, I did as well.

My heart aches for that girl whose one wish was just the approval of others. She never got it. Instead, she was pretending to be like everyone else. The time that she acted like herself was when she was ridiculed and was told she was being "too much". She went along with it for so long she lost herself in others.

Now maybe you've always known exactly who you are and you flaunt that part of yourself (which you should). Or maybe your story is like mine and you're still trying to find yourself again even years later. I can proudly say that I've found that wild, spunky, crazy girl again and I love it! Yeah, people look at me like I've lost my mind but I'm being 101% me. And that's so freeing! I'm a bit all over the place with my music genres and food categories but I LOVE big sweaters, plaid flannels, and fuzzy socks. Give me fall weather and a chai tea latte and I'll be set. Romantic movies are okay, but I seriously love some fast & furious series and a good crime show (Criminal Minds anyone?!).

But I think my favorite thing about who I am, is who I am in God. God sees me as His daughter, I am perfect in His eyes. Everything about me, mind, body, soul, heart, He views as perfect. From the crazy curls on top of my head to the crookedness of my toes, He deems me worthy of His love. I get so hyped when I think about how much God loves me! I'm not just some small, weird person that He randomly picked (well, I am small and weird). He created me and YOU in His image. So the next time you look in the mirror, remind yourself who created you, who formed you in your mothers womb. The same God who created me and you, created the heavens and the earth. From the stars that are billions of miles away to the tiniest grain of sand, HE LOVES YOU! Never forget that. <3