Years Past

A few weeks ago, I was talking to a friend about how 2019 has just flown by but that so many things have happened. She said that 2019 for her has been a year of preparation. And I thought that word fit so well. The past four years I've put a word to that specific year. From 2016 to 2019, each year has a different and a different word.

Struggle: strive to achieve or attain something in the face of difficulty or resistance.

2016 was a year of struggle. I went through so much during this year being 17 years old. I was depressed, anxiety plagued me everyday, and I attempted suicide. I lived. Two months after i attempted suicide, I went to a Christian camp that rocked my world and set me on a journey of finding myself and God.

Change: the act or instance of making or becoming different.

2017 was a year of change. A year of ups and down, failures and set backs. I graduated high school and went to college only to realize that college wasn't for me at the time. I was finding more of what I wanted to be and wanted to do. But God had other plans for me. He knew my plans and desires but they weren't in His story for me.

Learning: the acquisition of knowledge or skills through experience, study, or by being taught.

2018 was a year of learning. At the beginning of 2018, I learned what I really wanted to do (go into missions) and I set foot in that direction. God walked with me and held my hand through that time. At the end of 2018, I was completely different. I learned who God truly is and His magnificent and beautiful love for me. God showed Himself to me through so many different things and gifts from others.

Preparation: the action or process of making ready or being made ready for use or consideration.

2019 has been a year of preparation. I think this year has been the year of most changes and set backs, but I believe that God is preparing for somethings to come in 2020. I started going to a new church that I LOVE and God has been speaking to me that I need to be ready. I don't know what they are but I know that God has a plan and He always gets the glory in the end.

I don't know what God has in store for 2020, but I do know that I trust my God. I trust His timing and His perfect love for me. He is good and His plans are good. He has shown me so much grace and love through everything and I'm so thankful. I would not be the same person I am today if not for God's grace and love and Him never giving up on me. and no matter what happens in 2020, I will chase wildly and recklessly after Him.

What's a word that describes your 2019?